After every update of HSBC, my brain just replays the whole update while going through my rolodex of lore in my head to make connections & guesses of what is coming. Months pass and that feeling fades, but an update happens and it is like a fresh rain pounding on the grey matter of my brain causing brainworms to resurface and whisper shit to hurt my feelings like "Imagine what Terezi Pyrope is going through right now."