cant get past the meat or candy choice. making the choice feels like stepping into adulthood, leaving the fun of my teen years behind (okay my teen years havent been fun but you get the point.) meat or candy feels like wire mother vs cloth mother. nessecity versus comfort. responsibility vs recreation. Becoming who you need to be vs becoming what you want to be.

Man im not cut out for adulthood yet can i go back to when i was 14 and obsessively watching old fandom videos and being cringe without all the horrible stuff. Cause brother im not ready for this. Sorry for get all deep and sappy its 12:34 am and my meds dont get refilled until tomorrow.